Incorrect!

I was listening to a song on the radio this morning, quite enjoying it, might I add. It was "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. Cute song, simple tune and lyrics that make you want to call someone up and tell them that you love them. Then a line came out that just ruined the whole thing for me.

"It's your Godforsaken right to be loved"

WTF????

The Concise Oxford defines godforsaken as "Lacking any merit or attraction"; the word forsake is defined as "to renounce or give up".

THIS LINE MAKES NO SENSE!!!!!

It's your democratic right to be loved, your God-given right to be loved, your bloody effing right to be loved, but not GODFORSAKEN!!! That's just stupid!



It really got to me.....but it's still a cute song. I am going to loudly sing one of the above options over the top next time I hear it.

Opening doors

Getting pulled aside at work is never a positive experience, particularly with my last employer, which was always pretty demoralizing. Monday....was interesting. On Monday I was pulled aside and told that my position was being abolished and I would now be a redeployee.


I've only been in this role a little over 6 months and quite liked it, however, just this morning (before I was told), I was looking on the net to see what else was out there in job-land. The bottom line is, I am not feeling challenged. Eventually, within the next 6 months, I could see myself moving on to something else.


SO, I am seeing this as a step, an open door of opportunity. I can imagine a swag of people are going to want to give me sympathy. Save it. There is a global financial crisis going on and people are having their jobs pulled out from under them without the security of the 'transit lounge' of redeployment that I have. It happened to a friend of mine, one week she got a promotion, the next week she was made redundant, no safety net and from the sounds of it, not a great deal of empathy. I'm happy to report that she has since landed another gig elsewhere and is very happy!

So while I get my own HR consultant who's mission in life will be to find me a job, I am being proactive and looking for something that I want, not something that someone simply has a requirement to fill. I am thinking only positive thoughts about this. The last 6 months has restored my faith in myself that I can do more than put stickers on boxes. Watch this space for the next exciting installment!

Making space

There are 168 hours in a week. I spend about 40 of these at work, 3 of them at the gym, around 56 asleep, 10 in the car/train en route to work/home. This leaves me about 59 hours of awake time to use as I desire. That is a weekend and a bit. The 'bit' is probably taken up by mornings, bumbling around the kitchen trying to remember which end of the box my muesli comes out of and evenings reacquainting myself with my fiancee after a day at work.

So technically, my weekends are clear space, but being a grown up and living in a grown up situation, my weekends tend to get swallowed. Swallowed by housework mainly. It's like I have this compulsive need to get everything done before I allow myself to do something fulfilling. The carpet has to be vacuumed and free of Oscar feathers before someone pops in for a cuppa, because alas, they might think less of me. I often spend my Sunday mornings at church, which is mainly choice, but I have to admit, there are some Sunday mornings that get up and go through the motions because I feel I 'should'.

I'm getting rid of 'should'.

For ages, I have been saying I 'should' catch up with a couple I have known for many years and who have been extremely kind to me. Just a couple of weeks back, I found out that one of these friends has been diagnosed with 'something nasty'. Today, I stopped shoulding and went and had lunch with them.

I had an afternoon cuppa with another friend who I'd been 'shoulding' to catch up with for ages...there were Oscar feathers on the floor....and she loves me just the same! I've removed 'should' and replaced it with 'let's' and 'will'.

And the housework, well, it takes about 5 minutes to vacuum the lounge, 5 minutes to sweep the kitchen and another 45 minutes for all the other odds and sods around the place. I am learning to stretch it over a week, do a little each day and find space and time for meaningful things everywhere else.

"Nurture your spirit today, by indulging in the things that make you feel more whole. Be yourself......with no apologies."

I wish things were simple

You've all read with great emotion, expectation and immeasurable support, about the surgery of my darling little bird. Now it's time to hear about mine! So, jaws been a bit tender, random headaches every now and then, can only mean one thing. Wisdom teeth.

So I had my appointment with the oral surgeon today. In my mind, I would go in there, she'd say 'Yep, they need to come out! Let's see you at Burnside hospital on the 14th of July!"

Apparently not.

Thursday morning, I am going for a CT scan so she can see how close to the nerve my teeth are. Apparently, there is a chance that I will get 'bruised nerves', causing me to have numbness and tingling in my lip for, oh, a few months!

I wish I was a cave man.